Heart break changes a person. Sometimes for the worst.. But sometimes for the better. Find who you really are in your darkest moments. Find the ones who truly care.
Heart break, real heart break can make you STRONGER and WISER.
Heart break is truly a horrible experience. But I have faith good things will come at exactly the right time <3
Finding out I was lied to straight to my face by somebody I called my everything … Taking every heart ache as a lesson learned. I can only hope it makes me stronger and wiser.
I was so impatient before. I wanted everything right in the moment. I couldn’t just enjoy life as it was happening around me.
I want to learn true patience. That good things will come to me at exactly the right time. *knock on wood* I have a whole lifetime ahead of me and so much to discover and learn. I want to stop and look around and enjoy every feeling that comes to me, even the bad because it will only make me stronger in the end.
Stop and smell the roses, look at the clouds and just be happy I’m alive and healthy. Every morning is a new start. To be who I want to be, somebody to be proud of. Truly become a positive, happy person. Trying to take the negativity out of my life because it only holds me down. And finally learning to let go of whatever holds me back from loving everyday.
It still hurts. So fucking bad. I know he’s hooking up with her - even if it’s nothing serious it’s clear there’s “something” and that’s why he’s moved on so easy. He’s bringing her around everywhere - slapping me in the face- he knew I had concerns of her when we were together and now look at them. Damn… I know I have to stop thinking of this stuff and looking at shit but it’s so hard … My mind can’t stop thinking about him. Everyday almost throughout the day. I know he’s with her at work and now obviously every weekend? No wonder it’s so easy for him… Damn, it just really hurts. Accepting what’s done is so hard when I still in love with him :/
I wanted to stay in touch with him, I told him I didn’t want him out of my life … But that may be the only option for me :(
Not going out as much as I did before is gonna be hard but worth it.
By summer I WILL have my new car, and hopefully a MacBookPro :D
But either way I need to learn how to save. I have a lot of things planned for my future so I need to start saving now rather than later. My goal is to go out only once a week. That means if I go out for lunch and drinks on a Tueasay , I’ll be staying in on the weekend or at least not do anything crazy. And I need to stop buying food when I’m out - that shit adds up so fast >.